Suddenly

Hey folks, I pray all is well in your worlds.

I have this unusual feeling bubbling up from within. The feelings of change on its way. I'm not sure if I am scared, nervous, indifferent or all of the above concerning this. However, this feeling is driving me nuts.

I had a feeling similar to this once before and I felt physically ill. I couldn't sleep, I literally couldn't eat as well. I felt broken, used and exhausted. This moment is slightly different. The only emotion I can think of is hopeless. I'm once again looking at a ticking time bomb and waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I feel as if I am at a stand still... I need a sudden moment to occur. That type of sudden moment to make things click, so I can piece everything together... That moment when things feel right again, almost normal. This rabbit hole just goes further and further down.

I wonder if I'll have what it takes to make that moment of self doubt suddenly disappear.

Until next time folks
Millah Out