Show Who You Really Are

Hey folks! I hope all is well. I just wanted to get a few things off my chest. What better way to do it then a free write?


Show me who you really are
So there are no tricks or suprises
No need to worry if it is you who should be in my life
Enough of the pretenses
It would be so much easier to listen to my senses
But here you are putting your best foot forward
Subliminally sending messages that you should be here
For what reason?
What are you trying to get out of being in my life?
You make me feel as if I need you
You must think I'm the lucky one for having you on my arm

What really is the truth?
You know, the right idea would be to think it is you and not me who is so lucky
People like you come across my path too often
No favors are being given

I should start thinking of myself as a river that flows through people's lives
You can't contain me for too long because I'll go stale
You can't trap me because I'll just drip through your fingers
I blend well with most things
Except oil, which is exactly what you are
What you will do is float above me
Getting a glimpse of who I am and maybe even getting the taste of me
But you'll never really have me

People like you make it hard for people like me
The kind of person where love runs deeper than the ocean and as vast as the universe
The type of love that changes you
The kind that knocks the air from your lungs
The type of love that changes your outlook forever

Until I can get something that at least reflects a piece of what is here
Then this portal will close
Show who you really are... So you won't waste anyone's time
Especially your own

Until next time folks
Millah Out!

A Minute and a Half

Hello Folks! It's been a minute and a half since I have blogged about anything. I've been going through a lot, living life.

Things are progressing as they should, business is increasing each day. Work is still work. I hope all is well with you people as well.

So over the past 3 weeks I've had a major breakdown. Spiritually, which in turn affected emotional and physical health. Stress is the root to all illness and dis-ease in my opinion. I've been quite stressed! So my tid-bit of advice for the night is....

Remain as stress free as possible. everything you are going through will work itself out if you believe it will. The only control you have is in the Present Moment... So make it count for something ;-)

Until next time folks!
Millah Out

Unknown

We as people beg and strive for the truth.
We state that we need it.
Must have it
But are we really sure that we are ready for it?
What does the Truth really entail?
Has anyone ever seen it?
Touched it?
Or tasted it?
Everyone has their perception of what life is and isn't
What it should and shouldn't be
So many double standards
So many contradictions
What is the truth?
Am I really ready to face my own truth?
If I were to face it
I wonder how it would look
Would I know what I feel to be real?
Or is this just imagery assembled from the deepest end of my subconscious mind?
What is your truth is almost the same as asking what is love?
Everyone's opinion is different from the next.

Whatever you choose to be your truth to be, make sure it suits you...
Until next time folks
Millah Out!

Go where the Wind takes you

Hello folks! I hope all is well with everybody. It's been a bit since I've posted anything.

I was simply giving it a break, because I was lacking inspiration. So now I'm back with a piece of advice. I'm going to keep it as short and sweet as I can.

So lately I have been allowing myself to experience new things. I've been indulging into trying new activities. I have been simply going where the wind takes me.

So I advise you to do the same. We as people have a tendency to not let loose every once in a while. Especially a person like me, a person who follows the philosophy of mostly work and almost no play. It leaves you feeling unhappy and not at peace with your life. For a long time I wasn't satisfied with the quality of my life. Now that I'm saying yes to more experiences and going with the flow of my life, I'm happier.

So my advice to you is... Live! It's ok to live a little.
Until next time Folks
Millah Out!

Freeze

Hello everyone! My it has been a long time since I've been inspired to write anything! So here goes

I want everyone to take a moment and freeze.
I understand you need to tend to the kids
Or a meal needs to be prepared
But take a moment to freeze
And you will see
How you have been allowing yourself to work on auto-pilot in your life
Just like I once had
I was once just like you
Always worried
Always afraid of the unknown
Im not going to lie, sometimes I still become afraid
Of what others think
Correction or what my brain thinks is right and wrong for me
My brain is my worst enemy at times
If I allow it to be

Now is the time to freeze
Take a deep breath
Let all your inner dreams and hopes float by
Take the moment to observe them
Which one suits you best?
Are you living your dreams?
If not what are you waiting for?

Frozen in time, designed by the mind to keep you there
Just existing instead of living
Time to melt the ice and go forth
To share what you've learned
Go forth and live your life in the present moments

Until next time folks!
Millah Out!

Sitting

I've been sitting for hours
Putting my hair in yet again another hairstyle which I have not yet completed
As I sat here for hours my mind began to wander
As it usually does
Wanders through the Hills and Valleys of my brain
Flipping through old memories as if observing a photo album
No longer wanting to keep the ones that do not best suit me
Or serve the person I am today
Which leaves the biggest question people mainly ask themselves even though they would deny it
Who am I today?
What mask shall I paint on my face and for whom?
Its all just an act
Who are we trying to fool? The world or ourselves?
Then when you answer that question... Ask why? What is it we try to constantly cover up?
You'll never really know what someone is going through unless you take a look into their eyes...
Take a moment
Step outside of your world and join the real one
Tell me what it is you have observed as you were taking a moment to sit?
And even if you can give me an answer, could you truly understand what you see?


Until next time folks
Millah Out

Listen

Hey folks! Looks like the Night Owl is still up... *sighs* I hope all is well with everyone.

Lately, I've been feeling really emotional. It's been hitting me since last week. A lot of memories, not so good ones have been flooding my brain. To the point where they burst and began leaking from my eyes. The kind of pain that many bury away into the depths of their minds. Almost like a scab that doesn't completely heal, because it's constantly picked at.

That was a wake up call for me, to sit back and listen to what I say. Sometimes we have to pay attention to our comments and thoughts. Take a look around you and see what the condition of your world is. Could what you observe be a clue as to what you feel internally? It's not time for me to take yet another moment of self reflecting.

Listen to what your "gut" is telling you, you may find the answers to what you've been looking for. My unhealthy dose of emotional distress has finally passed. I began listening to myself once again, blocking out external components. Sometimes your outside world interferes with your inner peace. Only if you let it.

Take out a little time and focus on what your senses are telling you to do. You never know...

Until next time folks
Millah Out!

Insomniac at Large

Relax, close your eyes, and take a deep breath
Just sleep
It's not something that comes to me so easily
Quietness surrounds me
Constant thoughts
An act so simple, yet so difficult for me to conquer
Constant cycle
Thoughts racing
Non stop
Take a moment
Nothing
Detachment
Physical changes
Mind, body and soul
Wee hours in the morning
Others are just getting their days started
While I'm ending mine
Off and on
On and off
Emptiness
Sleepiness
Nothing
Mind babble
Mental vomit
Corrupts my every move
Dictating my words and actions
Attachment to the old
Time to make room for a new
A new adventure
A new life
My head is pounding
I live in my head
It's time to release
Stop fighting it
My dear it is time
Time for understanding and patience

It's time to let go
Now is the time to sleep
Until next time folks
Millah Out!

It is not Your job...

Hello folks! I hope all is well with you ladies and gents. I am currently enjoying my free afternoon, just relaxing. I just had a mini issue, which has inspired me to blog about it.

It is not Your job to make anyone around you feel comfortable. It seems throughout my entire life, I was always told not to say certain things or do certain things. I was always told what is and isnt appropriate to such an extent that I reinvented myself into a person that blended in. The real truth is even then I always seemed to have stood out. Almost to the point of embarrassment. I was always talked about, laughed at, or whatever.

So even then I wasn't fooling anyone, I was always a tad bit different. I now stopped the blending in that I once used as a defense mechanism. I tell a little of my story, to let people know Be Yourself. You don't have to change yourself unless you feel it's time to do so. It isn't your job to make others accept you. Half of the time people are not comfortable with themselves, so they tend to project these feelings into another person.

When you are truly yourself, people that are meant to be in your life will accept you for who you are. So don't alter yourself just so others can be comfortable.

Until next time folks!
Millah Out

All About You

Hello folks! I pray all is well with you all. Things lately for me have been flowing, there's no better way to describe it. Although, my sleeping schedule can do better... Was cleaning out my closet and I found my prom dress and graduation dress from 8th grade! I can even still fit them smh! I didn't grow much I guess.

Now back to the title at hand! When is the last you can recall just being alone? Not many phone calls, just quietness, you just being? If you cannot remember, then some You time is well overdue! I was generally to myself yesterday and it didn't feel weird. It took awhile for me to get to a state where I'm good with just me being alone.

So today's blog is dedicated to spending time with yourself. You never know what surprises are in store. Especially when you've accepted yourself.

Until next time folks
Millah Out!

Experiences... Elevation

Hello folks! It's been a little while, I apologize. My life has been having some ups and downs recently. So this blog is dedicated to Change. Change of lifestyle and experiences which can lead to elevation of oneself.

Someone today has told me that I'm too young to suffer with stress. This person stated that I'm too young to experience it to the point of where I suffer with migraines occasionally.

I feel.... That's a load of poppycock! Why I say that is because, the experiences that I have lived through is what makes me who I am today. We all at one point in time or another are faced with life lessons disguised as challenges filled with adversity.

Everyone in this world no matter how young or old faces some sort of stress. How we handle the stress is really where the change may spring into action. Every decision we make can cause us to gain and also lose something. What we gain and lose is up to us to figure it out.

The moral of this story is... I go through every life lesson for a specific reason, for a greater purpose towards my life. The same goes for all of you! So choose wisely!

Until next time folks!
Millah Out

This one is for the Gents (sorry Ladies)

Gentlemen... Is all I can say. You men come in all shapes and sizes. Some of you may not always have the words to express your true feeling, so instead you show us women.

A real man.... Once again the definition others have for it now isn't quite what I have in mind. My definition of a real man is a gentleman that sticks by his lady, supports her (emotionally,mentally, physically). When times get difficult he isn't a man that strays away from responsibility. The kind of man you count on for kind words and a strong hug when you need one.

I do not believe A "Real Man" can only be defined by his material possessions. Sorry folks! No goody bags being handed out for that. It annoys me that so many people are bedazzled at the fact that a man has a car or his own place.

Material possessions are fine gentlemen. As long as that's not your only way to attract. Broad shoulders, smooth skin, beautiful smile, great conversation. You are the other half to the puzzle, which makes the circle of life complete. Without a man there will be no women and without women there will be no men. We need eachother to build nations, to build families, to sustain life.

The values of a man has become fuzzy due to what they portray you as in society. Some men today are not living up to their fullest potential. Some men disrespect their people and especially their women. All I want to say is I love your masculinity, how proud you stand. Just know the troubles you men face everyday, is not all in vain. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

So men stand tall, proud, speak with authority, and help us women rebuild the nation. The way it truly was intended to be.

I know I said this one was going to be made awhile ago, but I needed to give it the proper words to show my appreciation for you.

I love y'all
Millah Out

Old Habits Die Hard

Happy Thursday folks! This work week is almost over! Thank goodness. I've been zombied out this whole week thus far.

So lately I've been satisfying my fix for mental stimulation and really awesome conversation with someone. This person is definitely a pleasant surprise since last week. I find it very interesting that I feel as if I've known this person longer. This is type of person you would hope to grow with someday.

So we were hanging out last night for an hour or so. My actions when we greeted each other is why I'm posting a blog now lol. So when we hugged each other, was a lot of "togetherness" in a way. Nothing happened physically at all, but it could've easily been one of those I Miss You kind of hugs. So I cut the hug short.

You must be thinking... Why break off a good hug, right? Well, the answer is quite simple. I am a young woman that has certain issues with showing affection at time, especially if I feel it's too early to feel that way.

When it comes to feeling emotions, logic gets fuzzy or is too strict on the rules of choices. I'm more of the logics girl. I would prefer not to deal with emotions, but that's not possible. So I'm going to start tapping into my more emotional side and acknowledging it does exist and needs to be understood.

Until next time folks
Millah Out!

It's Monday!!!

Hey everybody, I hope all is well and you folks are enjoying your Monday so far. I for one had a pretty chilled weekend. Just relaxing and taking out time for myself. I touched up on my braids, painted my nails, made some body products, had a business meeting. Overall a pretty productive weekend.

The kids are having naptime right now, so I have a little downtime. These kids today are bugging out a bit. Then at 2pm off to Kumon. Sometimes this double shift thing tires me out physically and mentally. I have to keep a goal in mind and believe it will happen.

Things have been morphing in my life once more. New people in and some out, but it all happens for a reason. I'm beginning to not sweat the small things that were only meant for a season.

Until next time folks!
Millah Out!

Embrace It! (This one is for the Ladies)

Hello Folks! This blog for today is for the Ladies (sorry Gents!). I'll post one for the guys tomorrow.

I just came from the hospital, my sister and I were visiting my lovely Aunt. This woman is such an inspiration to me and she represents a Strong Black Woman in my eyes. My definition of what that is does not directly reflect what the "typical" woman would perceive it to be.

To me a Strong Black Woman is a woman that can keep her family together, despite all the adversity her family may face. A woman that takes care of the bills and still maintains her home. A woman that is tough yet still maintains her feminine side.

There is so much more, but that list can go on and on. This does not only apply to Black Women in particular, it applys to any woman that is a loving individual. The only reason why I say that term SBW is because it's a commonly misused phrase. If a woman has to state the fact that she is a strong woman every 10 seconds of the day is a clear indication that she's a lot more fragile than she realizes. If I ruffled a few feathers... So what!

We live in a society that does not exactly value women as a whole. We are naturally the nurturers and caregivers. For awhile I saw something wrong with that. It is mostly portrayed in a negative light. It seems like sometimes the worse thing is to be a woman. We have to compete in a "Man's World." If we show emotion we are too weak and fragile to work with men. If we are too assertive then we are called out of our names. If you are beautiful you aren't always taken seriously. All the while dealing with our cycles! (The monthly dot). So why would we want to be women? Lol I've asked myself that for years. I used to wish I wasn't born a woman. I'm being completely honest.

I now appreciate being born as I was meant to be, because I began to truly value myself. There's nothing wrong with being feminine. There must be a balance in this world just as well as there is masculine energy, feminine energy also exists. So many women are trying to fill in the role of the man. I understand certain situations (single parent home) where a woman would have to be the nurturer and provider. Do it with that feminine flair, that only a woman can do.

The fact is if a woman is completely confident in knowing who she is, there is no way she can lose her identity or let someone else define her. If us women maintain the balance in our lives, we truly can have it all. You must believe it.

Until next time Divas!
Millah Out!

When something's good...

Hello folks! Happy Hump Day! I hope everyone is doing well, I sure am.

Last night, my sister dragged me to a local bar for Erotic Poetry Night. I had a small sample of my Cake Batter mixture in Shea Butter. I didn't realize that others around me were able to smell it. If I thought I wasn't doing business last night... I thought wrong! Both of my sisters shout out my products when given the opportunity.

The moral of the story is... When you possess something amazing you can't keep it concealed forever. Trust and believe others will shout you out!

Until next time folks!
Millah Out!

Mental Relaxation

Hello Folks! Happy New Year to everyone. I pray that this year has started off smoothly for all.

So as I'm becoming older and more experienced with life, I'm beginning to realize certain things. One thing I've realized is that we as people sometimes create obstacles in our heads. Sometimes we can make something truly bigger than what it should be.

So as this has been realized , take a moment to reflect over some decisions you have made. Did you make the best decisions? Did you tend to overreact to a situation?

Now that you have mentally answered those questions, what do you plan to do to change that? So it causes you less stress and allows you to make choices with a clear state of mind.

Lately I've been guilty of over analyzing current situations and I feel that finding the source and fixing my actions can help. Sometimes thinking too much isn't that good for you. I'm going to attribute this thinking to my constant headaches! Lol

So if you must dig deeper to quiet your busy mind, then by all means do so!

Until next time folks!
Millah Out!