Sunday, January 30, 2011

Doing the Straight thing!

Hey People! Yesterday, I decided to take on a different look. I decided to get a weave, a straight one!
Naturals... Don't get on me about that self hating crap and me wanting the European look. I'm well aware of the subconscious self hate that many blacks may suffer with. However, I can say that I love my image. I love being my dark-skin and soft cottony feeling hair. I felt it was time to change it uo. So I got the weave.

This weave will only last for about two weeks, which is cool. Since I began taking the path of learning how to properly care for my hair. I never went a week without washing... So this is going to be tough, me not washing the hair for two weeks, but I have to be strong.

This is also another example of doing what you want to your hair regardless of what others think. My besty told me today that he didn't like my hair. At first I cared about his opinion. Then, I thought to myself for a minute: Why the hell do I care if anyone likes it? I'm not dating anyone, to have to go through lengths to impress them with the way my hair is styled or the way I dress... Do what you want to your hair and wear it proudly.

We as people have to stop making decisions based on other's opinions. It will make you unhappy and discourage you from trying new things. Stop and take a minute to think about why someone has told you not to do what you want, when it comes to your image. Is it something that can potentially damage your hair? Or because they will never consider doing it?

When it comes to any decisions you choose. Just know the reason why you are doing it...

I chose a straight weave this time. Who knows what my next style will be... But at least I know it's my decision and no one else's.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Back to Me

Hello everyone! I've finally decided to not be lazy and took my hair down from my braids... And what a pleasant surprise I have recieved...
My hair has grown! I'm very pleased with the way my hair felt when I took the braids out. It felt nice and soft. So appartently I'm doing something right.
I remember when I first began to learn about properly caring for my natural hair, I was sticking to using a set few products that hair guru Kimmaytube was using... I didn't become a product junkie... However, I was obsessing a little about my progress with hair growth. And as time went by I stopped using the things Kimmaytube using, because my hair wasn't a fan of it. (Look at me talking about my hair as if it has a mind of it's own... It kinda does though lol)
The advice I would give to a lady or gentleman that is deciding to grow their hair natural for the first time, transitioning, or whatever the case may be: Patience is key!
Learn about the things many naturals avoid... Such as mineral oils, silicones, Sodium Lauryl and others. No, I'm not saying to avoid them, but I am promoting experimenting on products to find what is best for you.
My hair doesn't like shampoos with Sodium Lauryl, silicone, or protein... Just because many naturals may use certain products that doesn't mean it will work for you. So I reccomend experimenting a little bit.
So remember newly naturals and transitioners:
-patience is key
-experiment a little

~Millah Out!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Was it worth it?

All this time that has passed us by... Now I'm here holding on, waiting for your reply
For you to make your final decision
Something that will show me you're still around
Once again im placed in that undecided box
Undecided about my life
Undecided about my position as a being
Undecided when it comes to what I want for myself

Once again you seem so nonchalant
Why did I know it would come to this once more?
Now it seems hard to be cordial towards the situation
To paint on the brightest, friendliest smile at the mention of your name
Is my pain worth it?
To be on a waiting list again?
Is your love worth it?
Is my love that powerful that you need to think twice before choosing me once more?
Or do I just think too highly of myself?
Once again I'm in limbo
Not friends
Nor lovers
I don't feel I have that position in your heart that you claim so loosely
Why do I find it hard to believe?
So whenever you decided to inform me with what's going on, you must ask yourself
Was it worth it?

Friday, January 7, 2011

Hey People!

My internet service is temporarily down. I'm at work right now. So some more vids on YouTube are to come. I wanted to thank everyone that shows me love and support in this world. My family, friends, and others. It has been an interesting start of this new year of 2011.

Today is my little brother's birthday. I love that boy. He is now 15! Hearing that number 15 makes me think back during those days when I was that age... Oh the memories! Anyway, my mother stopped by asking for suggestions when it comes to buying him a present. I understand it's his birthday and all but.... He doesn't deserve a DAMNED THING! Yeah I said it!

The most he receives from me is a hug, kiss, and a card. LOL it may sound mean but you wouldn't understand unless you were in my shoes. This boy is rude, disrespectful, sweet, kind, super smart, and everything in between.

Moving on to the next subject...

I'm going to create a series of vids titled: Milly's Corner. This series will be pieces of poetry written by yours truly. It takes lots of courage for me to even share my pieces of writing with anyone. So please when I post vids reciting my poetry, be gentle on the comments. Any other subjects you think can make a good vid, don't hesitant to email me and suggest it.

Until next time people!
Millah Out!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Happy New Year People!

Happy new year everyone! I pray that you all celebrated in a safe responsible way. Its the dawn of a new year. New year means new experiences if you allow it to be that way.

I just finished crying, because many things were confirmed for me today. Its all starting to really hit me. You know its ok to cry. I dont do it as often as i used to. Yes i may have puffy eyes the next morning and a splitting headache. However, other than writing, crying seems to be another way of expressing myself. I tend to do it alone in the middle of the night majority of the time.

Why am I rambling on about crying right? My point of doing this is to prove that we people cannot always be "strong" or perfect at all times. We all fall, but its time for me to get up and dust myself off. Its time for me to continue living.

I dont have any new year resolutions, because those are goals you set for a new year. I set goals for myself everyday. The main one is to do right for myself, regardless of how others will feel about it. Keep moving foward and take care of my well- being.

I have to take it day by day... I know my current feeling of pain and sadness is only temporary. I know i will be ok. I just have to take life as it comes.

Until next bloggers!